A train of thought hit me
by inch of skin
at three past eight.
Rapid falling night,
robotic and cold,
I clutched the sheet,
anxious
to rest my broken feet.
‘Can’t you keep me sacred?’,
he tossed.
I lay there
numb,
(like he told me)
docile and discrete.
‘I try.
But certain unsure days,
there ain’t abscondence
from incubus feeding
on my flesh.’
Magician of verse,
he let out a roar,
‘Where is your former self?’
His fingernails
angled between my legs,
usually crimson,
tonight blue.
‘Safe in grave’,
phrases I didn’t choose,
poured out from my throat.
‘I’m worn out,
untamable,
bloodstained mess
and
I know not how
to defy the same ordeal,
different days’.
He forced open my chest,
conjured an albatross
at an instant.
‘Love that has known defeat
is a breathing masterpiece,
sheltering inconspicuous wings
to rise beyond
the sombre smoke rings.
Haven’t you rummaged through?’
I had lost my glasses
somewhere amidst
intoxicated atrocities.
‘Blurred,
dwindled to a trickle,
three spades
and a lost queen.’
I winced.
A murmuration
of starlings swooping,
owls screeching in protest,
my chain of thought
bawled,
‘Take a moment,
move the stones
that block your way.
Your delay,
their easy slay.
Wait for the shifting tides,
dance around
the winsome meadows
that lure your soul.
Shatter the chain and bar,
loud.’
The iridescent candle sparked,
I deduced
my virtual self
on the opposite wall.
Remembrance of his last strokes
of purple-green
on my chin
paved my footsteps
to paradise,
so ravishing.
‘I can climb out, I believe’,
the euphoric alien in me
heaved
in rapture.